Tag: Family

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Day 323/365 Totally Doable

Lately I have been feeling really happy… Sunshine-y, even. I have been in a make-sure-you-tell-people-you-love-them (and not because you’re afraid they’re gonna die but just because you love them) kind of mood. A random-acts-of-kindness kind of mood. A mood of expansion, a gesture of openness….a heart open wide to life and love, and their infinite possibilities. I think it all started when we were … Read More Day 323/365 Totally Doable

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Day 301/365 Braving The Rapids

I was twelve years old when I first understood that my mother would do anything for  her children, without hesitation. In fact, she would drown. The creek, which was often completely dry, sometimes offered a gentle current into which we could dip our toes… But on this day, it was raging. I had never seen it that way before, nor have I ever since. … Read More Day 301/365 Braving The Rapids

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Day 271/365 It Isn’t The Dying That Matters

It has been a rough couple of days. December 27th was the one year anniversary of Dad’s passing. Well…technically it was January 5th that he died, but he was never conscious again after his collapse on the 27th. I wrote before about how Mom knew he was gone that first day (see here), and thus it has become the day of greatest significance to … Read More Day 271/365 It Isn’t The Dying That Matters

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Day 245/365 Like the Stars at Noon

“Yet that light is always present, like the stars at noon.” – Peter Matthiessen, “The Snow Leopard” Depression and grief have been frustrating emotions for me. They are hollowing, damp and heavy emotions, and being IN them is hard in and of itself, but for me the hardest part has been knowing these emotions are not my true nature. I know the lightness of which … Read More Day 245/365 Like the Stars at Noon

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Day 185/365 Box of Wishes

“These are antique candles,” my mother said as she placed the half melted candles into the top of the cake. I laughed, thinking she was making a joke. “I’m serious! They belonged to your grandmother.” I looked at the box… “15 cents” Yup, definitely antique. “They used to make candles that lasted a while,” she said. “Not one-and-done like they are now. Imagine how … Read More Day 185/365 Box of Wishes

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Day 177/365 Papa Did This

We spent the weekend in one of my favorite places on Earth, with many of my favorite people. Summer, I wasn’t ready to say goodbye to you. Thanks for humoring me. Sitting out on the dock last night, we watched the most beautiful sunset unfold. Beau leaned into me and whispered, “I think Papa did this for us.” She meant the sunset, of course, … Read More Day 177/365 Papa Did This

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Day 118/365 John, Part II

A few months ago I shared a letter I had written about the death of my cousin, John. He passed away two years ago, and the letter was my way of processing this.  I shared my thoughts about alcohol and drug addiction; about what it had done to John, and to our family. John’s eleven year old daughter, Megan, is here visiting us for … Read More Day 118/365 John, Part II

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Day 43/365 Beach Apocalypse

For about the past twenty years, my family has taken an annual trip to an island off the west coast of Florida. It is a trip we all look forward to with great anticipation every year. We start daydreaming about it right after Christmas, and we count the days until May. This year the build up has been different for me, of course.  Right after … Read More Day 43/365 Beach Apocalypse