Category: Love & Loss

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Day 55/365 One More Last Time

Last night as we were getting ready to head down to the beach for the sunset, I began to imagine what it would be like to have dad back for just one more sunset. He loved the sunsets. I thought, what if we could stand on the footbridge one more time with him and watch as another “day in paradise” (as he would say) … Read More Day 55/365 One More Last Time

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Day 48/365 More is Revealed

“Are you dating anyone?” he asked. “No” I said, feeling a sudden and powerful discomfort. “Why not?” he probed, not unkindly. “I don’t really have time,” I said. “Between having the girls five days a week and running a business…” I trailed off, perhaps knowing it’s a complete lie. You make time for what you want. I didn’t share the words that were resting on my … Read More Day 48/365 More is Revealed

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Day 26/365 It’s Not About Daffodils

Every year at this time, when the daffodils appear, I think of the poem by William Wordsworth, “I Wandered Lonely As a Cloud” Do you know that one? He stumbles across a massive field of daffodils. He stops and marvels at it, not realizing as he does so that he is creating a memory that will bring him joy for many years to come. … Read More Day 26/365 It’s Not About Daffodils

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Day 25/365 We’re All Mad Here, Alice

Earlier today I was all set to serve you up a post about daffodils….trying to stick to the gratitude theme and all.  However, writing about those sprightly little bits of sunshine today seemed, well…at best, insincere, and at worst, like I was shoveling BS. (Maybe I shouldn’t say that on account of the lovely daffodil post you may very well be reading tomorrow! 365 days, … Read More Day 25/365 We’re All Mad Here, Alice

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Day 19/365 Two Sh*ts

I have always thought of myself as a very lucky person.  In fact, years ago, I would worry that things were just too good.  It was like I had some deep “knowing” that my life could not possibly continue to go as smoothly as it had been.  For sure, I felt “dipped in it.”  I had two beautiful and healthy children, a loving husband, and … Read More Day 19/365 Two Sh*ts

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Day 9/365 – SNAKESKIN

It has been exactly two months since my father passed away, and I have had a very bizarre weekend, emotionally. Alone for the first time in weeks, I experienced huge fluctuations in emotion – from giddily dancing around my bedroom to Stevie Wonder in my underwear, to bawling my eyes out on my couch. When I feel truly happy these days it is such an … Read More Day 9/365 – SNAKESKIN

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Day 3/365 – IN HIS SHOES

I spent the hours of 2am-4am staring at my bedroom ceiling, thinking about the past year of my life. I haven’t shared much about my personal challenges throughout the past year, because much of it involves the journeys of others whose lives are intertwined with mine. Therefore the story is not mine alone, though the impact on my life has been immense. I realized … Read More Day 3/365 – IN HIS SHOES