Category: Love & Loss

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Day 268/365 Finding Gratitude (and even inspiration) Within Pain

Throughout my life I have predominantly had a positive outlook. I have always lived with the understanding that everything happens for a reason. I have trusted that there is a purpose to every experience….that we are all being led somewhere…being taught or shown what we need to learn in this life. We can choose to see it that way – or not.  I had … Read More Day 268/365 Finding Gratitude (and even inspiration) Within Pain

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Day 254/365 No Words

Chemotherapy is the oddest thing. My mother didn’t feel the slightest bit sick until they started trying to cure her…until they started pumping her with poison to make her well. I spend time with her almost every day, but sometimes (more and more often) I don’t know what to say… Everything I say seems wrong. If I am happily talking about things I’ve done … Read More Day 254/365 No Words

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Day 252/365 It Is Every Day Work

Right now I am straddling three books. I mean, not literally. That would be weird. I was halfway through one book, and became interested in another, and at the airport the other day I was drawn to a third. Usually I am much more of a one book at a time kind of person, but I am getting a little something from each book…there … Read More Day 252/365 It Is Every Day Work

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Day 250/365 Feels Like Home

Equillibrium….sure footing…balance…. Lately, with all of the turmoil in my life, I have yearned for stability…or as my friend Melissa so perfectly said, “I am really looking forward to life getting boring.” I wrote recently about The Nothing, and about how it is a lack of imagination about the future – a fear of what’s next. In beginning to pull out of that, I … Read More Day 250/365 Feels Like Home

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Day 244/365 Keeping It Real

I wasn’t sure if I should blog tonight, because it is Thanksgiving night and I am not feeling very full of thanks, quite frankly. As I expressed in my post yesterday, I had every intention of holding space for sadness, and for still feeling gratitude…and I did, but if I’m honest…the sadness won out for me tonight.  You have to understand that my dad…well, … Read More Day 244/365 Keeping It Real

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Day 243/365 Happy Thursday, Everyone

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, or as my mother and I have decided to call it, “Thursday.” Today I went to pick up the turkey I had ordered at the local market. When they placed it on the counter, it seemed so small. Truthfully, the thing is 18 pounds, it isn’t really that small at all, but… Last year when they brought out the bird I’d ordered … Read More Day 243/365 Happy Thursday, Everyone

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Day 242/365 Hope Is The Thing With Feathers

I have been collecting feathers for years. I find them to be not only beautiful, but inspiring…transcendent. Who hasn’t imagined what it would be like to be a bird in flight?  When my ex and I split up four years ago, the girls and I moved to a tiny guest cottage on a farm. Right next to the cottage was a barn, and I … Read More Day 242/365 Hope Is The Thing With Feathers