“Did you ever know you were so strong?” he asked, tenderly (or was it…admiringly?). I could imagine him, grinning and shaking his head in mock disbelief.

After an emotionally draining weekend, I felt anything but strong. His words brought me to tears. I know crying makes him uncomfortable, so I fought against them. I tried to calm the tremor in my voice that would give me away…to hide how profoundly and deeply those words from my (ex) father in law had touched me.

Did you ever know you were so strong?

When he called I was walking through the woods, thinking about the last few years – the last year and a half especially. It is incredible how much has happened.  In my mind I was trying to rationalize my depression (Why am I still here in this painful place?).  I know I don’t need to rationalize it, but there I was nonetheless, making a mental list of all of the things that have happened that have weakened me – Everything that was causing me to feel so broken.

Did you ever know you were so strong?

His words reminded me that these things that have happened – they have not weakened me. They have not broken me. These turbulent times have forced me to keep rising up, over and over.  I have survived them all. I will keep surviving. I will keep growing stronger.

Did you ever know you were so strong?

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