My whole Saturday and Sunday too
I was thinking about ways not to lose
I lay down my weapons is what I’ve done
Too late to hide, feet too soft to run*
This weekend…I wallowed.
I laid down my weapons.
I waved my white flag…mostly from my couch, in my pajamas, subsisting on bread and chocolate, coffee and wine.
I slept A LOT. I allowed my myself to feel angry and sad and sorry for myself. It was a pity party of one, and I was the guest of honor.
When my kids got home last night, I was so happy to see them. I played games with them and I cooked us a good meal, but honestly I was still inexplicably exhausted. I found myself counting the minutes until I could seek the safe haven of my bed once more.
This morning my inner voice whispered to me…
“You needed that. I understand.
But, my Dear…
It’s time to pull yourself up.
You can do this.”
I believe her.
My inner voice is very wise –
She has been through a lot.
*Lyrics by The Wood Brothers
Photo by Alexis Harvey