Those of you who pay close attention to this blog may have noticed that I didn’t publish anything yesterday.

I often don’t have time to write until after I put my kids to bed at night. So, around 8:30 or so I (sometimes begrudgingly) open up my laptop to blog. I guess for me it is kind of like exercise – I often don’t want to do it, but when I am finished I generally feel much better. Sometimes I even get a bit of a writer’s high (is that a thing?).

Some nights I have no idea what I will write about until the moment I am basked in the glow of the computer screen. Other days I find myself turning words around in my head for hours before I have the chance to launch them toward you. The words pour out as soon as my fingers hit the keyboard.

Yesterday, though…yesterday I tried. I tried to make sense of my thoughts in a way that I could translate for you, but in the end I decided to close the computer without hitting “publish” (and you’re welcome, because what I had written was rubbish). I chose sleep, and space, and I hoped that I would find the right words for you today.

The big writing obstacle I am facing is that I am not ready to share with you what has happened….what is happening.

This latest obstacle (Yes, it’s new! We like to keep the hell fresh around here!) is taking up a lot of my energy – physically, emotionally and mentally. Although this blog is all about feelings, and processing life…I can’t share this thing with you.

Not yet.

For the time being I have to find a way to work around it, because this blog has become an important tool as I navigate what has been the most challenging year of my life.

Somehow I’ll have to find a way to be authentic and open without directly addressing…

The Elephant in the Blog.

Okay, you guys…do you need a laugh? I sure did!

I googled “elephant trunk images” and came up with these beauties –

 

 

 

Wait for it…

 

 

 

 

Yours for only $34.99 on Amazon! They come in sizes XS to XXL.

Do you think the “trunk” is the same size on all of them?

(Asking for a friend.)