As you think, so shall you become. – Dr. Wayne Dyer
The Law of Attraction –
You attract what you think.
The energy that you put out into the world is what comes home to roost.
When you are depressed, this is a scary concept. You feel as though your depression is a self fulfilled prophecy. You might believe that positive things won’t begin to happen for you until you can muster up some positive energy, but doing so feelings like a Herculean effort.
You may barely have the energy to get out of your own damn way.
When I learned about the Law of Attraction, it made sense to me, personally. I’ve been a kind and grateful person, and good things have happened for me.
Lately, though, I’ve wondered…
Did good things happen to me because I was positive, or was I positive because good things happened to me?
After all, it’s easy to be positive when things are going well, but this past year has been full of trauma and drama for me, and I am pretty sure I didn’t manifest (nor ever even imagine) the things that have happened.
So you see, you can get into a bit of a spiral about Law of Attraction when bad* things happen. You think – did I do this to myself? If I brought about the good things, did I inadvertently bring about the bad things too?
I don’t really know the answer to that. I mean, I can play devil’s advocate and just say – there is no such thing as Law of Attraction. Everything is random. We cannot and do not have any impact on the course of our lives.
Maybe we are the arrows, not the bows. We don’t choose our trajectory.
I don’t have an answer for you, but I will say this – feeling good feels good. Feeling bad…you guessed it…feeling bad feels bad. (Run Spot run. See Spot go.)
As my dear friend, Monica, would say, “Thank you, Oracle of the Obvious.”
Look, I am just trying to stick to what I know for sure to be true.
Some days that’s all we can do.
So, here I am, feeling depressed (although writing this has been entertaining) and knowing all the while that all I need to do to feel better is to stop feeling depressed. Duh. So simple (please know that was dripping with sarcasm – there should be a sarcasm font, no?).
Then, along come “The Shoulds“. I hate those smug bastards.
They say I should do something to make myself feel better today. I should try to manifest some positivity. I should attract joy by feeling joyful.
Listen, for today, I am telling The Shoulds to eff off. I’m allowing myself to wallow today.
I’ll manifest some effing happiness tomorrow.
Seriously, I will.
*I had to put the asterisk there, because through it all, I believe that there are no “bad” things. Everything is a lesson. Everything evolves us if we choose to let it. (Oh shut up, Pollyanna). Did this blog just become like a “Choose Your Adventure” book? Did you pop down here for “Optimist Bethany” or did you read all the way through what “Pessimist Bethany” had to say? Just curious. I definitely would have popped down here. Just saying. I’d have been too curious about the asterisk. You should totally finish reading the whole thing though, really you should.